A Year Ago...

November 14, 2004...
So recent and yet so long ago!!

Bishop Fellay's conference in Kansas City...
Joey's now taller than me!
Rosie looks so little!
I wonder where we'll be a year from now...

Thoughts

Ay, ay, ay.... where to even start?!?! I feel like a very complicated person. More than one person offered me "a penny for your thoughts" this evening (I must've looked awfully preoccupied! ;)) ...the first time, I had a very difficult time just funneling my myriad thoughts into coherent speech... and before I could, we were interrupted. The second time, I did manage to speak what was on my mind, but before we had gotten very far in that conversation (one that was important to me), we were interrupted. It just wasn't my night! ;)

I was in a very melancholic mood tonight. Not depressed, but very pensive. I sat out in the beautiful night air for a couple of hours and did a lot of thinking... not even thinking in actual THOUGHTS so much as letting my mind drift and rest as it pleased. I couldn't tell you to save my life all the things my mind flitted over! It was so nice to just get out in the fresh air, away from some of the noise, and just ..... think. Beautiful.

I have become convinced that life is a most intricate thing. (I know, that's probably very fundamental and basic, but it takes me awhile to discover these things for myself! :D) Life is really such a gift, a great gift. But it can be DARNED confuzzling ;) at times!! So many characters and personalities to mesh together... so many variables... so many why's and and why not's that won't be answered until the hereafter.

I have recently come to appreciate more than words can express the security that being with old friends can give a person. I still don't feel wholly secure - I probably never will - but when you can confide in old friends, ask their advice and listen to their troubles, it's such a consolation... especially when you are in the ever-ongoing process of forming new friendships that haven't yet reached that stage of trust. You just notice it all the more. So I want to thank MOST heart-felt-fully any "olden-golden" friends who might be reading this for their loyalty and friendship. It means so very much.

...So many thoughts... so little time... that elusive time that ticks ever on. Too quickly when you are cherishing a moment or enjoying yourself and too slowly when at a disagreeable task. Ever-relentlessly on through the night. And so, although it would be easy to make this post last much longer, it must be truncated and published so that it's authoress might retire to bed. ;) She is in desperate need of her beauty sleep. :P
Forgive me if the above is very unorganized! That's the price to be paid in the post-midnight hours. ;)

For now, God bless and good night!!

Human Nature...!!

Yes, indeed, we ALL have human natures. :D

Veterans' Day

Just Stopping By... :)

Hello, my dear readers!

Although I would love to be able to sit and chat, I really can't spare the time this evening. It's been yet another VERY BUSY day!!! So much to do and get done - and so little time to relate recent events.

Thank you all for checking up on the blog and I'll post again as soon as I get the chance. I'd like to remind everyone that ANY of you can comment! ;) :P I know there are some of you out there that read the blog at least semi-regularly and have never left a comment!!! :O :D ...hint, hint... ;)

Anyway, I must run! I'm supposed to be in bed within the next 30 seconds or so... or my coach will turn back into a pumpkin! :P

Good night!

~Wednesday~

Hello, all!

Just checking in briefly to relate the day's events. ;)

This morning, I walked to school for a change! That was pretty nice... outside of the facts that the wind was messing up my hair :P and that I was carrying a very heavy bookbag on one shoulder at a time. I made pretty good time and got to school in about 15 minutes. The sole class of the day was Liturgy... our mid-term in that class is a week from today.
After Liturgy, I found my History mid-term in my box. I had gotten an 88 - not the "90's" grade I thought I might've gotten but still a pretty good grade for that class.... AND I beat my 'rival' ;) by six percent!!! :D :P

Sarah gave me a ride home.... after lunch, we test drove a Lexus that's for sale. It was a NICE ride!!! :) I hung out a little bit, not doing much, and then I had to go to play practice. (Meanwhile, Rose was at her singing lesson and Dad and Joey had gone hunting.) I walked down to campus again... easier this time without the bookbag! ;)
Play practice went pretty well. There were some blocking changes - the week before performance!! :O - but they were all for the better. It was hard to stay in character today - so many funny things that I wanted to laugh at. Hopefully, the night of, everything will seem very real, so I won't have such a hard time! :) Our next practice is Saturday - a full run-through as exactly as possible. ...I walked home after practice and left again shortly thereafter to study Theology at Froggy's with Jozef. That time I drove. ;)

While I was at Froggy's, I got a call from Rose asking if I knew where Mariann was... Dad and Joey had shot a couple of deer and Rose was going with them and Mr. Cooney to help find them... she wanted to ask Mariann if she would be interested in helping out also. It took some doing to find the elusive Mariann, ;) but at last I caught up with her. She seemed happy to go and we left immediately for home. She and Rose, Joey and Dad left, picked up Cooney and went out to the woods. Mom and I went to the cemetery and said a Rosary in St. Anthony's honor to help them find the deer. Meanwhile, Mars was the first to spot the downed doe! Dad called us and we called Buzz (the butcher guy) and arranged for Dad to bring the carcass over once they found it.

About an hour later (~9:15), they arrived home. They had only found one of the does, but that was better than none!! ...Mars changed out of her borrowed hunting garb and we took her back to the school almost immediately because curfew was drawing near, and even nearer than that was the computer lab curfew - and she had left her homework in the lab! So we took her 'home' and when we got back, Dad had left to take the doe to Buzz'.
Not much else exciting took place... I guess that was enough activity for one day! ;)
And "so it goes." (As Fr. Harber likes to say. ;))

For now, goodnight! God willing, I will wake to see another day and then I'll let you know how that goes too. ;) Thanks for reading!

Oh yes!

One MORE post - to make four today!

I just wanted to let my readers know a bit of follow-up to my previous post about the family in the Philippines who desperately needed money to survive. Having just had their fifth child and trying to do God's will, they are very badly off at the moment. I had asked people to please be generous in their donations. Really - even $3 or $5 is something. Just SOMETHING. Please... it's a work of mercy.

Money is definitely still needed, but I wanted to update anyone who was interested... a couple of days ago, the $120 mark was finally reached and so the first donation was able to be wired to this family in need. The timing was perfect. They had just used THE LAST of their money. They had nothing left and they were crying and praying, hoping to find some way to go on after that. It was that evening that the money was able to be sent to them. It is helping them go on, but more is still needed. The goal for November is $300.

Please, for the love of God, do what you can to help this Catholic family out. I can assure you that this isn't a scam - the money IS getting to them. It requires a little faith, but really - what do you have to lose if you donate only $5 or $10?! To donate, please click here.

THANK YOU!!!
God bless~

~Tuesday~

I know I've already posted twice today, but while I've got the time I thought I'd post again. :D

Today was a long day (...as predicted). It was nice weather but for some reason, things just didn't move along very quickly. It probably had something to do with the fact that I was tired. I had Physical Science (two hour lab), Theology, Latin, History, and Ethics. The good news of the day was that Thursday will be a light day... only 2 classes instead of the usual 4, thanks to the priests' monthly day of recollection! :) After school, I took pictures of the sunset (about 5:10). It was pretty neat tonight... A little later, I went with Dad to take the van to L&L for a tune-up and to fix the right rearview mirror which fell out a week ago. We dropped the 'white apple' ;) off.... hopefully it won't be too long before my ride is back. ;) Dinner was a crock-pot roast and a new veggie casserole of sorts - it wasn't bad! :) After dinner, I walked down to the cemetery and said the Rosary with a group of the college students, around Sean's grave. Sarah and Mariann came back up to the house with me where we gathered Rose and Joey and headed to Wamego for ice cream. :D (Yeah, ice cream in November. Sounds crazy. ;)) Rose had gotten a free McFlurry coupon so we redeemed that at McDonald's and then went over to Sonic where the rest of us got ice cream. :) That was very enjoyable! We got back about 9 o'clock, dropped them off at the college, then went by the clinic briefly for Rose to do some photocopying and finally home.

Another day in the life... ;)



.......Here is one of my sunset pictures... the leafless trees give it a rather desolate look, don't they??

Home They Brought Her Warrior Dead

by Alfred Lord Tennyson

Home they brought her warrior dead:
She nor swooned, nor uttered cry:
All her maidens, watching, said,
‘She must weep or she will die.’

Then they praised him, soft and low,
Called him worthy to be loved,
Truest friend and noblest foe;
Yet she neither spoke nor moved.

Stole a maiden from her place,
Lightly to the warrior stepped,
Took the face-cloth from the face;
Yet she neither moved nor wept.

Rose a nurse of ninety years,
Set his child upon her knee—
Like summer tempest came her tears—
‘Sweet my child, I live for thee.’

Being a Melancholic-Sanguine

Do you ever get to feeling so frustrated and so helpless with life and with the people in your life?!?!

I do.

My Sanguine side loves to socialize, to be with people, to have fun. My Melancholic side likes to observe people, likes to feel appreciated, and wants people to live up to expectations. It isn't too hard to satiate my Sanguine side at school, but when it is mixed with my Melancholic traits... that's when I feel about ready to tear my hair out!!!!!!! How can I engage in conversation with 50 people in a day and come away feeling so very alone?! Why do I feel like I'm putting on an act and nobody really knows who I am?!?!
I suppose it's my sensitive nature that makes some people seem callous. I try very hard, but sometimes I feel so unknown, unwanted, unappreciated.... just UN! I don't feel like I have a niche and, although I do love to get along with everyone like I generally do, it would be nice to have a close friend who understood me, who would be there for me. I do have at least one such, but she's not here at present. And so I must content myself with doing things with all various people, but never the same person or people on a regular basis. It all seems very superficial, though perhaps it isn't quite as it seems. It makes me wonder if I'd leave a gap at all if I were to die tomorrow.

Ah, well. Such is life. Although this feeling seems to be closing in on me more and more frequently of late, I'm sure that it too will pass in time. I just had to vent, but didn't want to bother anybody..... at least if you've read this post, you've done it of your own free will and not because you couldn't get me to shut up, right?? ;)

Maybe tomorrow my Sanguine will win out and I won't be too bothered by the slew of thoughts that seems to follow everything. Or if my Sanguine didn't show through at all, that might be okay too. I'll see if I can't just live life one day at a time and avoid getting complicated like this! Thanks for bearing with me - I guess it's my Sanguine once again that wants to get the Melancholy off my chest! ;) ........enough for now, though.

God bless~